Let me tell you something. You know how easy it is to get into debt, but so much harder to get out. The hardest part is starting. After I got laid off and used my credit card (that I re-established after I was debt free) to pay for my medical insurance, it became very easy to use it for other things. And because I was no longer inputting what I was spending on here and keeping track of my habits, I went a little cookoo! I know what I am doing. I know what I should be doing. But then something shiny hits me and I am blinded by the sparkle!
So, I am now back in debt.....coming back to what helped me to stay focused the last time. I was debt free for so long. It felt so good. I need to get back to where I once was. So I am going to go through the same thing I did last time and focus on what I am spending each day. Right now, I have.....
And I feel like this......
So, yet again, it is time to do this........
I need to fix this.
So tonight I will be cutting up my cards and turning to cash again. This is definitely like a disease. An addiction. I think I will always be like this. Like when someone has that first drink, they think "I've had one, I might as well get sloshed."
I need to be honest with myself and realize that I need to change. So that is what's going on with me. You can judge me if you like, but I will cry.
Today is the day to change. Again. I feel like I let you down. Whoever is reading this. I feel like I let myself down more than anyone. But, I am going to learn from this and change.
Thanks for listening, whoever you are.
My first update, tomorrow.
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