I'M BACK!

Let me tell you something.  You know how easy it is to get into debt, but so much harder to get out.  The hardest part is starting.  After I got laid off and used my credit card (that I re-established after I was debt free) to pay for my medical insurance, it became very easy to use it for other things.  And because I was no longer inputting what I was spending on here and keeping track of my habits, I went a little cookoo!  I know what I am doing.  I know what I should be doing.  But then something shiny hits me and I am blinded by the sparkle!

So, I am now back in debt.....coming back to what helped me to stay focused the last time.  I was debt free for so long.  It felt so good.  I need to get back to where I once was.  So I am going to go through the same thing I did last time and focus on what I am spending each day.  Right now, I have.....

And I feel like this......

So, yet again, it is time to do this........

I need to fix this.  

So tonight I will be cutting up my cards and turning to cash again.  This is definitely like a disease.  An addiction.  I think I will always be like this.  Like when someone has that first drink, they think "I've had one, I might as well get sloshed."

I need to be honest with myself and realize that I need to change.  So that is what's going on with me.  You can judge me if you like, but I will cry.  

Today is the day to change.  Again.  I feel like I let you down.  Whoever is reading this.  I feel like I let myself down more than anyone.  But, I am going to learn from this and change.  

Thanks for listening, whoever you are. 

My first update, tomorrow.